Clean vs. Play
Welcome home working mom.
Walking in from work to toys galore, dishes in the sink and dishwasher, toys galore outside, dirt all over the couch, dinner to be made, sand in the doorway and I did not have time to pee yet today. My children do not care much I am home. I have thought all day how I want nothing more than to feel their arms around my neck. All I can think about now is all I have to do tonight. Dinner, baths, nebulizer and then the whole house cleanup, shower and preparing for tomorrow. There are not enough hours in the day. It is 5:00 pm and I am exhausted.
My to do list looms over me. I know it all can wait, I know. Treasure your time with your kids, yadda yadda. The fact is I need physical help. It has to be done. They need to eat. They need a bath. I need a bath. They need to be able to walk on a floor without sand on it. I press on, battling in my mind if I should be with them or start to tackle the "must be dones."
When bathtime starts its all laughing, splashing, and talking about if Spider-Man or batman are better. No rushing. Just breathing, just blue eyes looking into mine. Books about trains, drummers and a mouse dentist that are far too long for me to read the real words so we make them up. We snuggle, we sing, we pray, we hold tight cheek to cheek. For a moment I forget what is waiting downstairs.
Then I walk down the stairs.
I trip on a hot wheel.
Then reality comes back.
Then I decide to sit down and blog instead.
This is real life moms. Where hearts are full but homes are messy. Where pancakes and eggs suffices as a meal when you are tired of thinking what to eat. Where you battle whether to clean or hang with your babies. Where cleaning wins a lot more than it should. Where you are always tired but always have a warm heart.
Today was likely one if those days for you too, mom. Lets cut ourselves a break and lower our standards just a tad. It's hard, I know. Lets ask for more help. Lets be more present with our babies instead.
9-10 So let’s not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit. Right now, therefore, every time we get the chance, let us work for the benefit of all, starting with the people closest to us in the community of faith. (Or family)
Lets chew on that one. Lectio devina that stuff!! :)
Happy almost weekend...